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february 01, 2005
HAPPY 5TH BIRTHDAY AIYAH.NET
5 years is a stinkin long time. amazingly enough, i'm still at it. surprisingly enough, i haven't run out of crap to talk about. shockingly enough, i still find motivation to come back to this computer day after day to fire up the site to work on.
what have i shared?
what have i confessed?
what have i divulged?
what have i forgotten?
what have i done to embarass myself?
what have i done to damn myself?
what have i held back on?
what have i spoke too much of?
what have i felt the most passion about in writing?
what have i said that will come back to haunt me?
sometimes i even forget what i've written about and luckily for the archives, it's there to remind me of the past, the things i went through, my thoughts & feelings, my frustrations, anger, unhappiness & sadness. it's there to remind me of the ups & downs, the joy, the pain, the loss, the gratitude, the revelations - this thing i call my life.
i hope to be able to still continue. i hope to be able to still call this place mine. i hope to be able to write the way i want to. i hope to be able to still express my mind. i hope i can still share my words, my photos, my all without inhibitions or limitations.
thank you to those who've supported me & this site for so many years. to those who started reading from day one, to those who started reading yesterday and to everyone in between - i appreciate you coming back day after day to follow my life with me.
over the weekend, i went to the mall to do some "window shopping". but as every woman knows, if you go to the mall without an agenda to buy anything - you end up walking away with everything. alright, i'm lying - i really did go hoping i would find a black jacket that i could wear both casual & dressy. it was my luck that i saw a black caslon jacket at nordstroms with constrasting blue stitching. i actually wanted a plain black one but the constrast stitching intrigued my fashion sense and so i gave in rather easily.
for a short 5'0" girl like me, finding jackets isn't necessarily hard but when you're looking for a longish jacket, it's hard to find one that won't make you look even more squat. as squat is the story of my life.
and one can never go wrong with an all black outfit i say. now, all i need are my horns. ;p
